The Amazing, Horrible, Wonderful Internet
After the work outside was done we sat in the kitchen with her handsome Emit (the most beautiful dog I have ever seen, cover your ears Annie) and she politely told me just how dirty my face was. I went into the bathroom and saw the splotches of mud and dirt and let out a big laugh. If it wasn't for this blog I probably would have never known these gals, (certainly I wouldn't had let out that particular laugh), and their friendship means the world to me. I drove home listening to good music and podcasts voiced by strangers I know better than my first cousins and just felt happy. Happy to be of use, happy for this crazy life, and happy for the internet that brings us all together.
But then I got home and checked out Facebook and was instantly bummed out. I posted my thoughts on the Syrian Refugee Crisis and the comments were the most upsetting thing I've read online in a long time. We all have the right to say and feel however we want about politics and global issues, but this wasn't your standard Left vs Right shit show we all expect. It was people honestly saying things like all Muslims are Satanic, Extremists, and shouldn't be allowed in the country. I think of friends who are Muslim that I love. I got messages from Muslim readers who thanked me for what I wrote. They shared their fear of replying to it, and reluctance to engage with people who are my "friends" online. I don't blame them.
I love what the internet has done for me. It's given me this life. It's how I reach people to share my story and they share theirs with me. But it's the same place angry people pace like caged animals, striking out just to feel something besides their cages. It's a place where hate is real. And the sad thing is we can't do anything about it. So what do I do? I ignore it. I focus on what I can do every day to keep this place mine, pay the bulls, keep my own story going. As payment I get your messages on Youtube and emails, telling me how this little farm has inspired or helped your own. Those messages are the greatest feelings in the world. They are why I'm still here.
So by the end of the night I realized I needed a break from Facebook. I posted a picture of Anna Kendrick and Snoop Dog (my favorite thing ever posted to the internet, EVER) and peaced out. Facebook and I are currently seeing other people. I pop in to check messages but I'm not commenting, reading updates, or posting there for a while. If you want farm updates, visit me over on Twitter. If you need or want to contact me, please do so through email. I'm easily caught through email@example.com these days.
I'll be spending a lot more time writing here, regardless. And posting videos to the Youtube Channel (Which has nearly 4k subscribers and 75 episodes!). Rainy days like today are mostly all about catching up on words, work, design, and enjoying hot coffee and documentaries while I work on logos and edit. I make lists to catch up. I try to make some paper. Not a bad way to spend a rainy day like this.
Internet, I love you. You're complicated and enable a lot of crazy people to be a pain in a lot of asses, but you make up for it with days spent with good friends, gorgeous dogs, hot coffee, lessons, love and the community this little website has built. Good and bad, I love it all.