Sunday, February 12, 2012

things will be alright

One of the songs that has stuck with over the past ten years is Phish's Farmhouse. I used to dance to it with my old Golden Retriever Murray in my parents kitchen. Last night while falling asleep next to Gibson I started singing it to him. He was in his usual place, back against my chest where he has slept nearly every night since he was an 8 week old pup. I don't know if he sleeps there out of habit or solidarity, but it is nice. I was upset from the past week. So I started whispering to my little black dog the lyrics I sang to dogs before him. His tail thumped as I scratched his ears.

Welcome this is our farmhouse. We have cluster flies, alas, and this time of the year is bad. We are so very sorry there is little we can do but swat them.

Gibson has this ability to seem almost human in his interaction. He did something incredibly sweet next. He scooched his body around so his head was facing mine on the pillow, and he placed his paws up onto my shoulder. Somewhere along the road he learned that his paws can work like my arms, and uses them to hook around hips and shoulders and bodies in what appears to be a hug. I'm sure it is some canine form of dominance, or maybe just the way he is used to getting closer to me, but whatever it is, last night it felt like I got a hug from my dog and I really, really, really needed it. So I started to cry and that's how I fell asleep. Not sad, not overwhelmed, just finally getting out all that emotion I had been building up from the things I share (and do not share) here. I sang the whole song to him, but I must admit, it is the chorus I like best.

I never ever saw the Northern Lights
I never really heard of Cluster Flies.
I never ever saw the stars so bright.
In our Farmhouse things will be alright.


I'm feeling much better this morning, and will head out for a jog in a little bit. Enjoy your day. I will be enjoying mine! I got a farm to see to and lungs to bust!

16 Comments:

Blogger Ivanhoe said...

Dogs... I just... oh man. They are saints. I grew up with them, have been comforted by them countless times, was even led home by them once when I was lost as a child, and I've read all sorts of fictional novels about them. I have a cat now, since my lifestyle would not suit a dog, and I love my fuzzy meowball very much, but when I see my neighbours' dogs or any other dogs out and about as I'm walking around, my heart skips a beat and I have to go over and meet them. The connections I have with them are so instantaneous, and they make so much more sense to me than my cat, bless him. I love how dogs also connect you to the people who are around them. I smile at the sight of a happy canine on a walk and the owner sees me smiling and then we smile at each other. So good for social harmony, dogs are.

February 12, 2012 at 1:33 PM  
Blogger Debi said...

Glad you're feeling better today. :)

Dogs definitely give hugs, that's how I fell in love with our most recent fur baby. We were on our way out of the humane society, when one of the workers brought her in (I wasn't really sure if I even wanted another dog, I was still recovering from the loss of our eldest, but knew it wasn't fair to the one left behind, to keep her lonely), but when I asked if I could pet her, the man placed her in my arms instead. She proceeded to wrap her little paws around my neck and nuzzle her head into my hair, I fell in love in that instant. I nevever even put her down, as she was a surrender, we were able to walk right out the door with her. We've had her nearly a year and she still gives those wonderful hugs, I can't imagine our lives with out her.

February 12, 2012 at 2:36 PM  
Blogger Janet said...

I'm glad balance has been restored and that Gibson has your back. Don't ever feel negative about blogging your life: you are honestly portraying the times when you use good judgement and the times that your experience falls short - that is rare - to portray yourself warts and all - keep it up - if we needed pollyanna we'd go find pollyanna.

February 12, 2012 at 3:13 PM  
OpenID chickadeeworkshop said...

I had an unbelievable tuxedo cat named Timmy, who would hug, too. I know people don't think cats do that, but this one did. I think it was something my daughter (his official owner) taught him when he was a kitten, but apparently, he liked it or he wouldn't do it. I've never been a big dog person, but this cat would curl up behind my knees when I was sick and it was such a comfort. All of our pets are special to us. What a blessing they are in life!

February 12, 2012 at 4:35 PM  
Blogger Mommyto3 said...

This is one of my favorite songs.

February 12, 2012 at 4:46 PM  
Blogger Kris said...

I love that last line. I don't think I have ever heard that song. Thank you for introducing me to such great music.

It WILL be alright. YOU will be alright. In a month or so you will have little lambs running around. Probably a few more pigs. Lots of little chicks. It's almost spring again!!!!!

February 12, 2012 at 6:03 PM  
Blogger Flartus said...

Mmmm, nothing like a good cry to let the mental toxins out. Good on ya, Gibson. He's got more than one job, apparently.

February 12, 2012 at 7:31 PM  
Blogger sara said...

Dogs are the best. I have a new dog -- a 3 year old lab. Never thought I'd have another dog after putting down my 14 year old dog. My new dog was in need of a home & I couldn't let her go back to her sad life in a barn with little human contact. She is at home here -- sleeping in a chair & giving me lots of love. Seems like she has always been here. I love her very much!!

February 12, 2012 at 9:11 PM  
Blogger sara said...

Dogs are the best. I have a new dog -- a 3 year old lab. Never thought I'd have another dog after putting down my 14 year old dog. My new dog was in need of a home & I couldn't let her go back to her sad life in a barn with little human contact. She is at home here -- sleeping in a chair & giving me lots of love. Seems like she has always been here. I love her very much!!

February 12, 2012 at 9:11 PM  
Blogger Megan, Rudy's mom said...

When the world is crashing down in your head or your uneasy about something there's nothing like a good special cuddle with your dog when they know you are troubled. My girl always seems to know when I'm troubled and she's right there.
That cuddle that Gibson does is super special!

February 12, 2012 at 9:36 PM  
Blogger Tiffrz-N-Kidz said...

I can't count the number of times I have sobbed into a tangled mane. Horses hug, too.

February 12, 2012 at 11:40 PM  
Blogger Stacie said...

I'm pretty sure some dogs do hug. It feels like a hug and it's at hug times and it just seems like hugging. I'm glad you have someone to hug and to allow you to cry-release yourself to sleep; sometimes that's the only thing that matters.

February 13, 2012 at 1:14 AM  
Blogger seagoddess said...

Our dogs....always the best comfort!!

February 13, 2012 at 7:25 AM  
Blogger farmgirlwanabe said...

Dogs are unbelievable - I love horses and like cats but I adore dogs - my black lab sounds like your Gibson - he always comes to comfort me when I am feeling blue - and all he asks in return is a scratch on his upper chest. They are gentle, kind, loving and yes a person's best friend. Our Elkhound is also cuddly but still a teenager - hopefully she too will mellow out in a few years like her predecessors - if I could figure it out I would send you a picture through this comment of the two of them 'kissing'

life can sometimes overwhelm but when you a four legged friend next to you it seems just a bit easier

February 13, 2012 at 2:49 PM  
Blogger farmgirlwanabe said...

Dogs are unbelievable - I love horses and like cats but I adore dogs - my black lab sounds like your Gibson - he always comes to comfort me when I am feeling blue - and all he asks in return is a scratch on his upper chest. They are gentle, kind, loving and yes a person's best friend. Our Elkhound is also cuddly but still a teenager - hopefully she too will mellow out in a few years like her predecessors - if I could figure it out I would send you a picture through this comment of the two of them 'kissing'

life can sometimes overwhelm but when you a four legged friend next to you it seems just a bit easier

February 13, 2012 at 2:50 PM  
Blogger cc said...

My border collie always knew when i was getting overwhelmed with the farm. he'd bug me and nudge me and finally i'd see...sit momma. let me love ya. and i would sit and scritch his ears and if tears came he gladly kissed them away.

February 14, 2012 at 1:43 PM  

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