Monday, May 31, 2010

sick as a dog

When a farm depends on you and you have the flu, your paradise turns into a prison. Simple things like changing out water fonts, pouring grains, moving hay bales, and feeding rabbits turn into labor instead of acts of love. When all you want to do, need to do, is sleep: the idea of walking out in the dark to secure the hen house seems plain awful. But you do it because you have to. Because there's a fox and raccoons and animals depend on me.

Chores that usually take an hour have to be spread throughout the whole day. I did things slowly, achingly slowly, between naps. Sleep two hours and water the garden, a cold shower and then bring the sheep hay. I did this while shaking, chills, and harboring an upset stomach that can't keep anything down... it makes walking two buckets of water up a short hill an epic journey of panting and cold sweat. I spent most of the past 48 hours in bed, either shaking under the covers or drenching the bed in sweat. I love this farm. I wouldn't trade in my life for anyone's but sometimes being alone is horrid.

When I was sick as a little girl my mother would wrap me up in blankets and take me out on her veranda outside her bedroom. I have such wonderful memories of feeling so weak, but so loved and safe. Last night I went out onto the rocking chair on the porch around 3AM and covered myself in blankets. I missed my mother so much it hurt. I'm 27 and miss my mom.

I am feeling slightly better. Yellow Gatorade, ice water, lots of sleep. I hope to be more of myself tomorrow. I did take off half a day for the long weekend so I hope that I can sleep in and take my time going into work. If I still feel like this I'll stay home. No point in getting coworkers sick.

39 Comments:

Blogger Dawn Dutton said...

Rest is best! glad to hear your alive!

May 31, 2010 at 8:56 PM  
Blogger DarcC said...

Get as much rest as you possibly can and definitely call in sick. As a fellow lonesome farm-builder, you have all my sympathy right now!

May 31, 2010 at 8:57 PM  
Blogger Heather said...

Someone as well-loved as you are should have a local back-up team!

May 31, 2010 at 9:13 PM  
Blogger Chris said...

Jenna I hope you get to feeling better very soon.

Hon, I'm 46 and sometimes I still want my mom!!!

Blessings, C

May 31, 2010 at 9:28 PM  
Blogger Velma said...

the chores won't stop and you have to get out there. i remember a similar situation. hang in there. it will pass.

May 31, 2010 at 9:36 PM  
Blogger Heather's Blog-o-rama said...

aww...that's no fun being sick..and you're right, it's hard being sick and still having to take care of responsibilities at home...especially if you're single. You rock :) :) :) You did it...and you love your life :) :) That's so cool :) ): That's a good outlook to have. Feel better soon.
Greetings from Oregon,
Heather H :) :) :)

May 31, 2010 at 9:45 PM  
Blogger twistie said...

Totally feel for for you Jenna, word of advice for the future.... make sure the man of your dreams wants the same things as you so that when you are together and are sick he'll do the chores, not you. I can relate to you in the sickness and having to still schlep your butt out to care for your animals.

May 31, 2010 at 9:45 PM  
Blogger Crystal said...

My blog post today was similar, though less animals and garden size to deal with. I have a husband but he works and I also have 5 kids (human ones). Two of which are sick right along with me. Cross your fingers the other three don't catch it.

I hope my kids miss me when they're all grown up and sick though. I'm selfish like that.

Sympathy and get-better-wishes from my sickbed to yours.

Crystal

May 31, 2010 at 9:47 PM  
Blogger Paula said...

Good girl! Stay home, get well, and don't get your co-workers sick.

Sounds like you have a real nasty flu that nothing but time, rest, and lots of fluids will fix.

Try crushed ice until you can keep something down, and then Pepsi, of all things.

Feel better soon!

May 31, 2010 at 10:06 PM  
Blogger Sense of Home said...

No sick days on the farm, hope you feel better soon.

Don't rush back to work, rest so you don't get a relapse. I always feel I have to get right back to work, then the illness drags on.

-Brenda

May 31, 2010 at 10:27 PM  
Blogger Alicia said...

Sorry you are sick. :(

I think it's coolto be 27 and miss your mom. I'm almost 27 and wish I had something about my mom worth missing. She could be worse, but I have nothing even remotely comparable to your veranda story. Heck recently I was on vacation there And had a rash. I tried to show her to see if she though I should see a dr, and she told me 'shut up And go take an oatmeal bath' turns out I had fifths disease!!

May 31, 2010 at 11:28 PM  
Blogger TaosJohn said...

You're still young. You need to build up those antibodies. I'm 64 and haven't been sick in over 20 years. That's what you have to look forward to! :-)

May 31, 2010 at 11:29 PM  
Blogger Katie said...

Being sick is the worst, but being alone and sick makes my heart ache for you. I've been there in my life too. Hope you start feeling better soon!

June 1, 2010 at 12:21 AM  
Blogger Debi said...

I know it's hard now, but when you're feeling better take pride in how strong you are! I know people that wouldn't get up for anything(not even human kids) when they're as sick as you are.

BTW you're never too old to miss your mom or want someone to take good care of you when your sick.

Sending lots of good healing energy your way.

Blessings,
Debi

June 1, 2010 at 12:26 AM  
Blogger Thistledog said...

Man I can so relate to that... we're all tough as nails until we feel reeeely miserable and then it would be so nice to have someone to take care of us like our moms did! Best wishes to you, hope you hit the bottom and start up the other side soon...

June 1, 2010 at 12:48 AM  
Blogger Heidi said...

a couple months ago i found myself on the backside of food poisoning wrestling my 65 pound goat who had broken off a horn. Not fun. I feel your pain.

I hope you feel better soon, lady! and if i were you i would definitely call in sick, even if i was feeling a bit better. it's always best to get back to your old self and feeling a 100% rather than trying to drag through while still feeling a bit off. thinking good thoughts for you.

June 1, 2010 at 2:09 AM  
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June 1, 2010 at 2:26 AM  
Blogger Kate said...

Did you push yourself too hard, overtax the system, Jenna? You'll bounce back quickly in your twenties, but take a lesson from it anyway. I know you love that farm and want to do a thousand different things. But your own body, your own strength and health are your capital resources right now - and always, really. Take care of them so that you can make good use of them for many years to come. Feel better soon.

June 1, 2010 at 5:49 AM  
Blogger Jenna said...

Paula! the first thing i bought was a glass bottle coke, for some reason coke (pepsi in your house?) makes sore stomaches better?

Kate, I do think I am overdoing it. The day before I fell really ill I worked outside from 3-10PM without stopping.... sometimes I just go go go and don't realize I need to pace myself.

i still have a headache, sore stomach. and fatigue, but don't feel like I'm going to fall over or talk deliriously.

June 1, 2010 at 6:16 AM  
Blogger Eric said...

Hot Ginger Coca-cola.
Just heat it up in a saucepan with some grated fresh ginger root. You will throw off those chills mighty quick.

June 1, 2010 at 8:22 AM  
Blogger doglady said...

I feel for you. The last time I was sick was 7 years ago when I had a litter of 10 German Shepherd puppies in my garage. They were 6 weeks old and needed feeding 3 times a day not to mention the clean up. I remember painfully doing the bare minimum of care in my Nyquil enduced fog. It was horrible at best. Rest up, get better, and pace yourself a little more conservatively.

June 1, 2010 at 8:34 AM  
Blogger Kristen said...

Get better soon! And when you are, give yourself a big pat on the back for being such a tuffy, despite being so sick.

((( hugs )))

June 1, 2010 at 8:57 AM  
Blogger Justine Capraro said...

Im sorry your so sick! I know exactly how you feel I live 4 and 1/2 hours away from my mom talk to her on the phone at least once daily and my husband thinks Im crazy, but no one can nurse a girl better than her mother.... I wish I wasnt oh about 6 hours away I would be glad to help on the farm. Its too bad you dont have someone close by you could count on to help out in situations like these.... dont forget to take lots of vitamins.... I work in a pharmacy, proper vitamins and lots of hydration keep me from getting sick and are the best thing for getting over sickness I find. Good luck and best wishes for feeling better.

June 1, 2010 at 9:07 AM  
Blogger Lawrence Braun said...

Need help on the farm? I'm somewhat battle tested... Will work for food and inspiration!

lawrence.braun@gmail.com

June 1, 2010 at 9:19 AM  
Blogger Farmer's Daughter said...

Why do you think farm families are so big??? I know my dad is happy to have his dad, brother and 2 sons to help out when he's sick.

Feel better soon!

June 1, 2010 at 10:22 AM  
Blogger Kitchen Mama said...

Cultivate your neighbors and anyone nearby that can chip in when you're down for the count. I don't have family near but I do have other moms around who help out when I'm sick--taking the kids, doing the shopping, etc. The best thing about it is that you can do the same for them when they need it, making for a great support community. Too bad all of us out in the blogosphere can't come help out! Get better soon. Arienne

June 1, 2010 at 10:38 AM  
Blogger Reason's Whore said...

I'm so sorry you're feeling so awful. Hope you're better soon.

That's the bad part of farming - no days off and generally no support system. It's kind of like motherhood in that regard. No one should have to be all alone though. Have you considered a roommate? Scary thought, but if you could find someone congenial, who also loves farming...

June 1, 2010 at 11:32 AM  
Blogger Matt_Middleton said...

Sorry to hear you're under the weather! Hope you feel better soon :)

June 1, 2010 at 12:51 PM  
Blogger Michelle said...

(((Big hugs))) Try to take it easy.

June 1, 2010 at 12:52 PM  
Blogger Summermelonfarm said...

Poor Jenna! To cheer you up we sing: "Get well, get well soon, we want you to get well!" (from Seinfeld, ya know ;)
I always miss my Mom too, especially when i'm sick. Reminds me to be extra sweet to my 4 kiddies when they aren't feeling good.
We wish you a comfy blanket and some homemade chicken soup.

June 1, 2010 at 1:39 PM  
Blogger Melanie J. said...

Sending energy your way; feel better, sweet girl!

June 1, 2010 at 2:10 PM  
Blogger Tara said...

Ugh - doing farm chores in between barfing - there's just nothing like it. I'm so sorry. It really IS an epic struggle!

June 1, 2010 at 2:18 PM  
Blogger damnyankee said...

Sorry, I feel your pain. Ben there done that. I always wondered what it would be like to be sick and actually stay in bed like I should have. That never happens. Hang in there Jenna. Somebody told me what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. But I'm sure they never felt like you do. Again, hang in there.

June 1, 2010 at 3:38 PM  
Blogger kakimbr said...

Jenna...There is nothing wrong with missing your mom. Moms have been taking care of us and making things better all of our (all of us) lives. I am 57, just spent 8 nights in the hospital (3 in CICU) and I missed having my mom there several of those nights...Get well soon.

June 1, 2010 at 10:30 PM  
Blogger Meredith A said...

are you feeling better yet?

do you have someone in mind who will watch the farm if/when you go out of town? maybe now is a good time to test run their skills.

they do the heavy lifting and you answer whatever questions they have...so when you do leave they are all set and while you're sick you have some help?

i understand, this is when a partner in crime would be helpful. where are all the good ones hiding?

June 2, 2010 at 12:13 PM  
OpenID thetinfoilhatsociety.com said...

Oh, I hope you are feeling better soon!

That's just your body telling you you've had enough stress in the last couple of months, and that you need some down time. I'm sorry you're sick.

June 2, 2010 at 12:43 PM  
Blogger Mimi said...

Hey Jenna, there's a thing called "cola syrup" which is for nausea and upset stomach. You can get it at any pharmacy. It's often taken by people who can't take other nausea medicines, like pregnant women, (not implying anything) and is like the name brands such as Emetrol. And it's cheap. So, I always keep some on hand. I hate to be nauseated; I'll take a cold any day over nausea. Hope you feel so much better really soon. Fluids (Gatorade is good)and rest are important and don't get overly ambitious too soon!

June 2, 2010 at 1:46 PM  
Blogger Moonblossom said...

How are you feeling Jenna? Hope your finally getting better..

June 2, 2010 at 3:27 PM  
Blogger Nancy said...

I think most everyone misses their mom when they're sick. I'm 53 and my mom has been gone 22 years and I still miss her every day. {{{{{HUGS}}}} from Oklahoma.

June 4, 2010 at 11:36 PM  

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